Seems like my life is just dashing past me. I have such good intentions, but spend my days doing projects for others. Rarely do I get any creative “ME” time these days. And I don’t know about you, but if I don’t get my crafting time, I get bitchy. Really bitchy.
And yes, I’m selfish like that. Although I love my friends, I need my solitude. I need to spend time inside my brain. There’s so many projects in my head that it becomes overwhelming at times. Not like crazy. But more like frustrated that I can’t do MY OWN stuff.
However, sometimes it’s not busyness. It’s laziness. Wait…maybe it’s not laziness at all. Maybe I’m simply EXHAUSTED! By the time I finish taking care of everyone else’s crap, I have absolutely no energy to do the things I want to do for myself, my family and my home.
As a New Year’s resolution this year, I promised myself that I would not volunteer to help others with their projects. You may think that’s rotten of me, but understand that everyone thinks I have nothing to do all day. Not a day goes by that someone doesn’t need me to do put together a small gift basket, do a little alteration on their new dress, or help them with a quick craft project. Although I want to scream, “LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!”…I succumb to the pressure and give in to their requests. And this builds resentment. And quite honestly, I’ve had enough. I really need to take the advice of Elaine, the Selfish Seamstress.
But here’s the thing—I genuinely LIKE helping others. Actually, I probably thrive on it. Sad, I know. So I’m thinking my problem is more one of BALANCE. Yep. How the heck do the rest of you do it? Between family, friends, housekeeping, school, blogging, sewing, decorating, etc.—Tell me how you find balance in your life.